Category Archives: Randomness

Peru – 1 Week To Go

Ah yes, Peru. It is upon me. I knew it would sneak up on me quickly and it has. I’ve had since August to prepare but there is nothing like the last minute of getting everything ready to go to make you feel like you’ve lost your mind. At least I got the recommended shots out of the way. A few weeks ago……and a few days ago.

A trip for me. It’s all about me. And it’s the best thing ever! 12 days away from the U.S.A. and all the modernization we have to go on vacation away from, well everything. I’ll be staying in the Amazon. Without air conditioning. With the highs in the high 80s. And lots of humidity. My room has a ceiling fan. I have a feeling I will be losing about 5 pounds in just those 3 days, just in my sleep. And we will see how the food and I get along. The photos I’ve seen of the local guinea pig dish scares me. It looks like something out of the “Gremlins” movie. But, I am willing to try it. I might have to eat it fast so the demon doesn’t eat me first though. I’m willing to try anything and everything, unless it might make me sick of course, while I’m there. No expectations and just live in the moments of every day I get to spend in Peru. I’m so ready for this!

Musical Inspiration

Here are some songs that I have related to in some way or have given me inspiration. These are the lyrics and all credits are provided with each song. 

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Still Standing

I have been through a lot of shit. I have been abused mentally, physically, and emotionally. Verbally/emotionally is probably the hardest I’ve endured because it cuts to the core. Physically, the wounds heal, you move on. Emotionally, the wounds never quite heal the way they should. But for me, it has made me stronger. I am built tougher than anyone. Sure, I cry quite a bit but that doesn’t make me emotionally weak. On the contrary, it’s what keeps me strong.  Continue reading Still Standing

Run & Hide vs Stay & Strength

“You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them”. – Iyanla Vanzant
I know a lot of people who run and hide from life, from themselves. They run to a bottle, drugs, negative people because it takes away the problems or feelings for a minute. Makes them feel good for a second. They turn to substance or negative people to bury their problems. The problem with that, is the problems don’t go away, they just get bigger and keep adding  up. The more problems, the more drugs, drinking, relying on other negative people to make it go away. You can’t just brush something under the rug because you don’t want to deal with it. That’s a big sign of not only weakness but  you don’t know who you are.

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Death. 

I have said for a while now that I have been to more funerals than weddings. My life has been full of death. Doesn’t mean I’m full of sadness and darkness. See, death is only the beginning of life for the soul. The spirit does not die, only the human body. When someone dies, their spirit is still “living”. You can still communicate with them. Just because you can no longer see, feel, or hear them does not mean they are not there. They will always be there. Let me explain this in a few different ways. Continue reading Death. 

Attention Seeking Ego

We live in a society that is full of ego. It’s more about what one can have and do for themselves than it is about helping each other. There seems to be expectations that if someone does something for another it’s because they want something out of it. I am one who does not allow my ego to drive my intentions,like so many others do. If I do something for someone, I have no expectations on receiving something in return. I am not going to go around telling people or showing people what I did. Why would I? I don’t do good things for the attention like so many people do. I do things for others because of many reasons. None of which have anything to do with attention and ego.  Continue reading Attention Seeking Ego