I have been through a lot of shit. I have been abused mentally, physically, and emotionally. Verbally/emotionally is probably the hardest I’ve endured because it cuts to the core. Physically, the wounds heal, you move on. Emotionally, the wounds never quite heal the way they should. But for me, it has made me stronger. I am built tougher than anyone. Sure, I cry quite a bit but that doesn’t make me emotionally weak. On the contrary, it’s what keeps me strong. Continue reading Still Standing
“You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them”. – Iyanla Vanzant
I know a lot of people who run and hide from life, from themselves. They run to a bottle, drugs, negative people because it takes away the problems or feelings for a minute. Makes them feel good for a second. They turn to substance or negative people to bury their problems. The problem with that, is the problems don’t go away, they just get bigger and keep adding up. The more problems, the more drugs, drinking, relying on other negative people to make it go away. You can’t just brush something under the rug because you don’t want to deal with it. That’s a big sign of not only weakness but you don’t know who you are.
Letting go isn’t always easy. But, sometimes it’s necessary. I have had to let go of a lot of things, especially people I love.
I have said for a while now that I have been to more funerals than weddings. My life has been full of death. Doesn’t mean I’m full of sadness and darkness. See, death is only the beginning of life for the soul. The spirit does not die, only the human body. When someone dies, their spirit is still “living”. You can still communicate with them. Just because you can no longer see, feel, or hear them does not mean they are not there. They will always be there. Let me explain this in a few different ways. Continue reading Death.
We live in a society that is full of ego. It’s more about what one can have and do for themselves than it is about helping each other. There seems to be expectations that if someone does something for another it’s because they want something out of it. I am one who does not allow my ego to drive my intentions,like so many others do. If I do something for someone, I have no expectations on receiving something in return. I am not going to go around telling people or showing people what I did. Why would I? I don’t do good things for the attention like so many people do. I do things for others because of many reasons. None of which have anything to do with attention and ego. Continue reading Attention Seeking Ego